Confused and stuck

So its getting towards the end of the school year and I have to make a decision on whether I want to carry on for two more years at college or not. You see I'm in a bit of a pickle. I'm supposed to be in college today but I just couldn't bring myself to get up and go, well not get up exactly because I'm still able to get the later trains and not be too late turning up, the problem is, I just don't want to.

Here comes the sticky pickle situation, if I don't carry on with college then I have no idea what I would do with my time. Let me take you to the beginning of my college escapades.
   It was 2011 and I just left High school, with scraping the edge of the barrel of enough GCSE's to do whatever course I so required at college. I didn't know back then either what I wanted to do, I looked around, and applied for so many different courses but in the end I decided on none of them. I begged and pleaded with my mum to let me take a year off education and by the end of that year I will know for sure what I want to do with the rest of my life, but NO, my mum wasn't budging on me staying in education, so off we went to the first open day we saw at a college, me sulking and dragging my feet behind my parents. This college was literally in the middle of nowhere, but because I had my mum and dad following me around and staring at me, willing me to be interested in a course, I signed up to the first one that would have me, this ended up to be a floristry course.

And I HATED it. There wasn't just one thing I hated about the course and the college, there was a lot but trying not to sound whiny and unappreciative i'll just list a few.

1. As I have already said previous, it was in the middle of nowhere. It was an agricultural college more than anything, so that meant they had a little farm, and they had an equestrian course so you could watch the horses galloping around and I will admit that was kind of ok but if I had a two hour break in between classes I would literally be stuck at the college wandering around like a little lost soul with nothing to do. If your friends were lucky enough to have a car, you could drive to the mcdonalds that was near by but that was the closest thing to excitement I came across.
2.  There were only girls on this course and I quickly learned that I can not stand being around just girls. Particularly these girls. Something about them just got under my skin and annoyed me, and I had nothing in common with them. Well apart from one girl but we've drifted apart and we don't speak anymore.
3. I didn't like the teachers. A lot of people will say oh no one likes the majority of their teachers but, just like the girls on my course, niggly little things they would do would just get me so annoyed and eurgh I don't  know, they thought they were so high and mighty and most of them acted all uppity and stuck up, I mean they were teaching me how to arrange flowers! They needed to get off their high horse.
4. And one last thing, we had to do work experience in a florist. The only day I could do mine was on a Saturday and they were the most boring/freezing cold Saturdays I have ever spent. The three women that worked there only really talked among themselves so I would just be standing in the back getting in their way. It was horrible.

I quit the course a few months later because I got a job and probably would've ended up having a nervous breakdown If i'd stayed. Ok maybe not that far but I would've been extremely unhappy. So for the rest of the year I worked and this is when my infatuation with reading really took hold.
   Although I started to get bored and I still didn't know what I wanted to do so I decided to go back to college and randomly joined the course i'm doing now. This course couldn't be further away than floristry plus there is only one other girl on the course and the rest boys, and I get along with her like a house on fire and the same goes to all the boys actually, and we've grown quite close. BUT I don't know if I like this course enough to carry on for two more years, this first year has been kind of crappy and we've been kind of put on the side lines and not done a whole lot but the teachers assure us it will be different next year

I just don't know what I would do if I did quit and it all comes full circle. 

This still of Daria sums up how im feeling PERFECTLY!

And with that im out! byee xxx

(p.s. if your a wise old woman and would like to help a sister out with some sage advice I would really appreciate it.)

Lazy Day

I am currently cuddled up in my big comfy quilt which I dragged down stairs to have a good old fashion sofa day. Looking outside at the doom and gloom British weather I couldn't be more content with my laptop, Glamour magazine, - which a guest left at work so I got it for free, BONUS! - my favourite sweets and finally getting round to watching The Hobbit. Am I making anyone jealous yet? He-he-he :)

I am NOT leaving this sofa unless for the necessary toilet issues Ahem, or to make myself a well earned cup of tea. This is going to be a good day!

Has anyone seen The Hobbit yet? Did you like it? If I end up liking it I think I might have to do a little review.

Signing out, Kim! xxx

Words, words, words, words

Once again I've collected up some of my favourite short passages of writing and thought I would share them with anyone who hasn't had the pleasure to read them yet!

“Remembering that I’ll be dead soon is the most important tool I’ve ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure — these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.” - Steve Jobs

I think the weirdest thing is that the person you’re going to marry and spend the rest of your life together with is currently walking the earth, living their own life, going to school or going to work or whatever, doing all these things and making all these memories that you’ll get to hear about from them years from now. - somebody off tumblr.

“It’s dark because you are trying too hard. Lightly child, lightly. Learn to do everything lightly. Yes, feel lightly even though you’re feeling deeply. Just lightly let things happen and lightly cope with them. I was so preposterously serious in those days…Lightly, lightly—it’s the best advice ever given me. So throw away your baggage and go forward. There are quicksands all about you, sucking at your feet, trying to suck you down into fear and self-pity and despair. That’s why you must walk so lightly. Lightly, my darling.” - Aldous Huxley

“Writing and reading decrease our sense of isolation. They deepen and widen and expand our sense of life: they feed the soul. When writers make us shake our heads with the exactness of their prose and their truths, and even make us laugh about ourselves or life, our buoyancy is restored. We are given a shot at dancing with, or at least clapping along with, the absurdity of life, instead of being squashed by it over and over again. It’s like singing on a boat during a terrible storm at sea. You can’t stop the raging storm, but singing can change the hearts and spirits of the people who are together on that ship.” - Anne Lamott, Bird by Bird: Some Instructions on Writing and Life

“From then on, Matilda would visit the library only once a week in order to take out new books and return the old ones. Her own small bedroom now became her reading-room and there she would sit and read most afternoons, often with a mug of hot chocolate beside her. She was not quite tall enough to reach things around in the kitchen, but she kept a small box in the outhouse which she brought in and stood on in order to get whatever she wanted. Mostly it was hot chocolate she made, warming the milk in a saucepan on the stove before mixing it. Occasionally she made Bovril or Ovaltine. It was pleasant to take a hot drink up to her room and have it beside her as she sat in her silent room reading in the empty house in the afternoons. The books transported her into new worlds and introduced her to amazing people who lived exciting lives. She went to Africa with Ernest Hemingway and to India with Rudyard Kipling. She traveled all over the world while sitting in her little room in an English village.” - Roald Dahl, Matilda 

Healthy Banana Pancakes!

I discovered this recipe whilst working out to blogilates on YouTube. I'm sure everyone and their Grandma has heard about blogilates but if you haven't its this woman that does tough but fun workout routines. If you haven't already seen her, by clicking - HERE - it will take you to her YouTube page. Anyway when I was doing one of her bum exercises she mentioned these Banana Pancakes. 

Two eggs and a banana is literally all you need. No Sugar or flower or butter. I think these are a perfect snack throughout the day to replace cookies or after dinner for a dessert.

All you do is mash up the banana in a jug then add the two eggs and stir in. It will be quite a lumpy consistency and when you turn them over in the pan they're bit more soft and floppy, but overall they taste actually quite nice, you can really taste the banana as well. I splashed a little bit of olive oil in the pan so they don't stick.

I 'spose the ice cream and syrup added to them afterwords wont make them all that healthy but I only do that once in a while. ;)

I've recently taking a bit of a hiatus from blogging because I've been so busy at college but hopefully I should be up and posting random things again soon. 

Signing out, Kim! xxx

Books And Flowers

I've recently changed my room around a bit and decided to put my books on display instead of hiding them away in my wardrobe. I like it! Although I thought I had a lot more books than this, I guess that means I need to buy more. 

Also, I bought these yellow and white Tulips yesterday and I loves them! It feels like spring is here, well in my little room anyway.

Just a quick little post, but I thought I would post it anyway to put everyone else in the springy  mood!

Signing out, Kim! xxx

Crop Tops

Hello everyone, this is my third consecutive post of outfits but my garden is just starting to look all pretty and I want to take loads and loads of pictures of it, hope you don't mind. :D

Literally everything I am wearing here, - apart from the shoes, which are converse - is from Primark. Even the sunglasses (which I got for 50p last year, and they're still going strong) and the bag are from there.

I bought the crop top yesterday, and its not something that I would usually go for, I don't usually jump on the bandwagon of fashion trends but I desperately wanted this top and I wanted to get it in the black and greeny colour but they didn't have my size! -.-

Is everyone doing good? Enjoying being back at school? Or enjoying work? I've been in college everyday this week and I have to be in everyday for the next few weeks! I haven't had to be in education everyday since I left school, and that was nearly 2 years ago, and let me tell you I am feeling it! I am so tired!!

Right, i'm off to make myself an egg salad I shall leave you with Ariana Grande - the way ft  Mac Miller. I've had this song on repeat since last week, it reminds me of Mariah Carey a little bit, anyone else notice that?

Signing out, Kim! xxx

Brighter Than The Sun

 Vest top - New Look.

Cardigan - I can't actually remember, i've had it for ages.

Skirt - Primark.

Shoes - Primark.

Scarf - New Look.

Bag - I got this bag when my neighbor invited me and my mum round for a bag and jewelry party. if you don't know what that is, this woman who sells bags and jewelry and other things set up what she was selling around my neighbors house and guests just have a nosey around to see if they want to buy anything whilst eating and drinking. My mum was generous enough to buy me this for christmas. If you click - HERE - it takes you to her website.

Helloo, once again the sun was shining so I thought I would take some quick snaps for you but naturally as soon as I set my camera up the sun hid behind the clouds! I feel like i'm always just talking about the weather on here, stop me if i'm boring you. I hope you all are having a good week, and are out and about enjoying the weather - see I did it again. - and not too dissapointed that school/college/uni starts again on Monday. 

As I was waiting for the sun to appear I was listening to this song on repeat, Colbie Caillat - Brighter than the sun.

Signing out, Kim! xxx